I am Catholic by birth and studied in a catholic school my whole life. I remember that in school we had religion class twice a week and that the Mass was celebrated every Friday. Over time I learned more and more about the religion and that made me a believer.
When you are little you live with the nearest relatives and few classmates from school, which in my case were all from the same religion. Our beliefs were the same at that time. My family used to go to the church every Sunday. My grandparents were very active in some activities provided by the church, so that was my daily routine.
On the other hand when you start growing up you meet people from other schools, friends of the cousins, friends of friends and so on, suddenly that little world one were used to becomes a big world, endless, and you learn that life is much bigger than you thought.
It was then that I began to expand my view of the world, to see how different people are, how different their beliefs are and that not everybody is catholic. Some believe in God and some have families who are Atheist. In the beginning I was in shock, none of it matched with my reality and I just heard what they had to say.
Having conversations with my family I learned how important it was to respect each of those who were different from me. It did not matter what I thought, it was their belief, and so they had to be. That was when I started to be curious about other religions. I learned a little bit from here, another bit from there and tried to put the puzzle together.
Even in my family some of my relatives changed their religions, my uncle went to the side of Spiritualism and my aunt, after changing a lot, is now part of the Episcopal Church. I am still a catholic, I still go to the church, every time I can and I want to, because I believe that there is no point in going just to be there physically, if your heart and soul are not there. I go to feel better with myself and to feel God’s hand on me, always blessing me and my family. I know I can rely on him, for anything in my life.
I do believe and respect the Catholic Church, but after learning so many different things I find myself in contradiction. Sometimes I do not believe that the Bible is one hundred per cent right, since it was written by man, but at the same time I do not think I am a bad believer because of that. God knows what is in my heart.
As some people said on the online discussion I do agree that there is the “do good law”, I think that whoever does good things will get good things back, although those who make bad decisions will have to pay for them, here or in another atmosphere, or limb, or whatever you want to call it. It is known by the law of return.
In my present life I do believe in some aspects of other religions such as Spiritualism, I do believe in reincarnation, contrary to Catholicism, and more than anything I do feel my grandfather with me when I most need help. But the most important is that regardless of the doctrines I am practicing I always have God, Jesus and Mary inside my heart. They are always guiding to the right direction. Even though I already took some bad directions sometimes, but with my faith I went back on the right path.
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